Working isn't so bad after all...I do miss Selah but she doesn't cry when Frank drops her off at homebased care and she apparently laughs as the other 2 boys run around so I know she's happy. She has a great bond with the carer and will be learning different things that I can't teach her yet (especially about how to get on with older boys!). It's nice to get some headspace from nappies and to get some perspective on how other Mums cope. As my job is with children, I do get to see Mums with their babies&children and some are managing superbly despite so many pressures (think unwell children in hospital alot, autism and tantrums). And then of course there's the income that will allow us to do more than make ends meet.
I am currently unwell with a fluey virus thing that is doing the rounds. Thank goodness Selah only has had a runny nose-I had ear pain so bad that I woke up from sleep in the middle of the night with tears down my cheeks. Huge thanks again to Frank for taking over caring for Selah so I could sleep in the day on the weekend-again I have no idea how people cope without a partner. I don't make a great patient (getting up to do things to help out) but it's particularly difficult to think only of oneself when there is a dependant that you're attached to (and vice versa).
We're halfway through the year and I always feel a bit more sunshiney on the inside when we're working our way up to spring (my favourite season) and summer (warmer weather). I just need to get a haircut and dye it a warmer shade from grey and then I'll be sunshiney on the outside too.